Monday, November 12, 2012

It begins...again

It begins...

The time bubble that exists around Encinitas still hasnt burst...no one grows up, moral development is at its lowest flow rate, the face of heaven is clearly present in every stunning blonde that walks past and all I'm left thinking is: 'never-never land is real'!
Here we go......

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Indifference to ones company

Indifference to ones company

Living in Los Angeles; home to invalids,, show-men, homosexuals, deviants, dero's, murderers and all other current and former peripheral members of society, the tangential concept encompassing this lovely neighborhood that it is also home to some of the most average and boring people on the planet is somewhat dividing of the mind. Armed with an exceptional grasp of statistical concepts and an abnormally high sperm count, it didnt take long for me to discover that most of the highly attractive females i was after were, in fact, very unintellectual and demure people. This inwardly led to a panic attack.

My earlier Socratic dialogue with myself concerning what i wanted out of female and the nature of love had no Socrates to keep me logical. It was just me, bouncing between the poles of intelligence and outward beauty. There was of course no one to correct me, as i am just myself, and consequently no thought necessarily implied the next, in fact, a thought would often contradict its predecessor. I thought perhaps some drugs would force clarity on my confused logical state, but this only further disturbed my demanding sense of order.

Spending the night at yet another strange tattoo'd girls house, she struck me with an interesting question early on. "You up?" she asked. Obviously i was left with a diametric situation: pretend to be asleep and hence avoid any unintelligent questioning, or wakeup with the usual eccentric charisma and throw her off balance, causing her chemically enhanced brainwaves to skip a beat and forget the aformentioned questions she was ready to impose. Obviously it was a risky situation, maybe one i shouldnt have placed on myself in my fragile state.
I chose the latter.
"Im way up!" i said, dropping my charade of sleep, which i instantly realized was a lie with no purpose.
Her centre parted hair, long and oddly brown, sat over her shoulders as her eyes flickered in a manner that showed she had remembered what she wanted to say, but suddenly felt a hint of regret at motioning me into this impromptu discussion. Her gaze changed again and she went on, oblivious to the last several seconds doubts.
"I cant get a job" she mumbled, her eyes beginning to water.
She was definately still in a drug reduced state, the come-down slowly sinking its claws into her mind. I wondered if maybe she wanted something chemical from me, but as i cant remember her or me paying for anything the night previous, i wasnt about to relent from this mongreled stance i had started.
Of course she was an actor, and traversed into an all-out discussion on her latest part as a bagel girl for a law firm show.
"I put my heart and soul into it. I wanted to be a great bagel girl, one thatd be remembered, someone memorable" This has been haphazardly paraphrashed as the entire speil lasted over 10 minutes and included quick 30seconds rants about her brother and his ex-girlfriend, her landlord, and the current status of the local subway shops construction, all topics met with the kind of childlike candor that attracted me to her in the first place.

She kept talking, but id stopped listening, preferring to think about where id left my orange juice in the fridge, so i could grab it without looking whilst i read the LA weekly. She didnt even finish her last sentence; it just trailed off. I think the subject had changed in her head again while her mouth had continued on the old topic, not realizing it was out of supplies. She asked me how old i was. It wasnt long till i left and got into the Montero sport to head home.

I subsequently met up with a homie from NZ (blake) and we travelled past several disturbingly similiar industrial neighbourhoods and stamp-like outdoor malls to arrive in San Diego. Surf, booze, coke and other assorted derivations of the previous 3 set the tone. I had now picked out an odd habit of doing a two foot shuffle into any bar we walked, somewhat to amuse myself at peoples vacant stares as they witnessed what they could only classify as quirky, and secondly to show the bouncers i wasnt inebriated to the point that such a maneuver couldn't be accommodated by my rapidly depreciating body. As there were only 4 people in the bar, i decided that there was to much ice in my whiskey and threw a cube at the guy behind me. He turned out to be gay, and a rapidly flaring argument and heated debate about gay-bashing and foreign civility was high on the agenda for the next 5 minutes before we got kicked out and someone kicked the dukebox. Megadeth was playing. Happy days.

I can say with all certainty that is the last thing i remember from the 5 days down south. 24hours sleep straight.

When i awoke a vibrant image filled my head. I am always amazed by what lies buried in the mind until one day for no particular reason it rears its head. That afternoon in bed, a vision of the tattoo girls face entered my consciousness, and i saw clearly that she had grey blue eyes, really amazing grey blue eyes. It was a small fact i hadnt realized id known, and one that will undoubtedly shape my life in the future.

Vadar

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

A life to be led

Indonesia. A broken melody of hydrodynamics, arak, endorphins, hammocks, half-sunken boats, sunken ferries and the ephemerally enjoyable act of wave riding. What stalwarts to this gloriously appointed blog will quickly notice is how there is no mention of the opposite sex and physical non-plutonic acts. I apologize in advance, or in retrospect, whichever you decide is more fitting for the way you react to these things.

Cue 52 hours of travel.

Leaving America in such a state was mind-numbing enough. A good friend of mine happened to drop into my sensory perspective via skype during this mindless session. His conversation was comforting and got me through my hard time. Of course, he said very little, nothing in fact, and the entire dialogue was selfishly one-sided; which has left me wondering whether the whole episode was in fact a figment of my imagination. I think the increased security presence in my immediate area was just a statistical anomaly in walking routes, but the harsh sideways glances from fellow travellers had me debating this rather trivial matter for several minutes (hours).

52 hours of travel. Partitioned as follows: 12 hour flight to Singapore, 10 hour layover, 2 hour flight to Kuala Lumpur, 5 hour layover, 1 hour flight to Padang, Hang out for the day till 6pm, 10hour ferry ride, 2 hour speed boat ride. Arrival here




The ferry ride needs to be mentioned. In biggish seas and in a wooden boat it was obvious I had entered something very different from your usual trip on the Lynx across Cook straight. The ferry would literally creak open going up swells and then compress going down them. I could see a mans entire big toe (normal human size, not possum size) in between flooring above me, only to have the gap quickly clamped shut upon descent into another trough of hydro. Waves are an amazing diametry in motion, bringing joy and fear in the same beautiful form.

It was my first time in a rural village in indonesia. The people are the usual story that you hear about in any form of travel media; perennial clove cigarette smiles , vertically challenged adults and 'hey mista!!'s greet the senses. For any transient its a breath of fresh and welcoming air.

I found a man to take me out to my new home for 2 months using the broken indonesian id practised on the ferry. Obviously i didnt sleep a wink given the omnipresent sinking-anxiety attacks episodes finely timed to the rising and falling of the bow. My new friends name was Ade and he was a champ. Cruising out of the small harbour of Muarasiberut with two german lads allong for the ride, i felt somewhat safe and pleased with the roll of events. Everything was going so smoothly i felt as if Indo is perhaps this mans home on earth, such is the vibe of the place. I guess everyone who comes here suffers the same joy. Suffering because we never want to leave, the expiry date on the visas looming like the proverbial monkey on the back.

I was here to meet my friend Blake, a mate i hadnt seen for a year. Yet emails and phone calls had conspired to sending me out of the great USA within 2 weeks, to arrive 52 hours in the middle of an Indonesia island group, isolated 12hours from any form of useable civilization. I hadnt spoken to Blake for over 2 weeks, as he was out of contact in the jungle. I was on a whim, hoping to make the connection in time and space.

The surf was pumping when i arrived, but sunburn and sleep deprivation couldnt stop me from making the paddle around the fringe reef to the lineup. The locals had not seen a large nosed, AcDc tattoed dero stalking the village, and this had me a bit sad. I needed barrel therapy. As i cavalierly stroked my way through emerald green water, against the sun in the distance i could see a 'super-saiyan' style haircut paddling down the reef towards me. It had an almost Victorian elegance to it, the long lost mates meeting up in a random lineup halfway around the world. We just sat on our boards 50m separated, laughing.

A firm handshake was all that needed to be said.





The following two months were a mixture of amazing waves. Esoteric living in a jungle, surfing, smoking, drinking and eating very little in the way of a sustainable diet. It was a surfing nomads dream. Like all dreams that are worthwhile to your consciousness, i dont remember much of the trip in detail; it now just exists as a floating bubble in the middle of a twisted mind.
One thing i DO remember in great detail though is the chicken slaughter. Pictures can back up the sheer violence. Two chickens delivered by an old mate, once in our possession were quickly stripped of their souls. However i had a bit of mind blank and couldnt snap my ones neck, so the poor little thing had a bit of a rough 30seconds. I do feel sad in retrospect, as a machete shouldve been the ending tool. Cest La Vie.



Chicken had never tasted so bad. But as 3 men and a lucky Swedish girl huddled around the table eating grey chicken legs covered in the Indonesian spicy T-sauce known as Sambal, we couldnt wipe the grin off of our faces. A protein fix to quick cure the weeks of emaciation and craving. I was 8 kg lighter by the time i took my first step on NZ soil after 2 months; amazing waves, solo sessions with friends, translucent water, warm water fatigue, soul searching, soul finding, soul losing, finding again, bush hikes, DEET addiction, clove tobacco addiction, never ending long boat rides, high seas, sinkings, camping, fights with locals, machetes, coconuts, transients met, guitars played, songs made, songs forgotten, and of course the heart of the culture we partook in.

All to be experienced again every year from now till i go stiff. Not long at my rate.